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[Snapshots of old and new parts of my life]
So much to say
And no one to listen
So I write.
Even if no one sees what I have written
It gets me by.
Something old I never posted:
Built up rage
Not for days, but for years
And she’s still here
Self-control makes her appear sane
But you don’t know what’s in her brain
Yours couldn’t contain the anguish and pain
Yet she sustains thanks to him
He who makes her gray skies blue
Even though she kinda likes the clouds
Her sunshine…
Sometimes the sun shines brightly on a clear day, not a care in the world
Other times, when the sun shines, she’s beneath the clouds
It’s overcast, she can’t see how brightly it gleams but she knows
She knows that if it’s not night it’s day, and the sun is shining anyway
Keeping her comfortable and warm through her stormy days
So when the clouds are so thick, it looks like night not day
Sun, stay.
Only you can send the clouds away.
NYE – 2013
Happy NYE, everyone! Even if you’re not happy, celebrate the survival of another year.
I started this blog a few months back as a way to have a social place on the Internet where I could be completely myself, no filter. While I have achieved that to an extent by voicing my personal opinions on subjects like feminism, culture, politics, health and being queer, the blog isn’t as personal as I want it to be.
In 2013, I’m going to post more insight into my life and mind so you can get to know me, because I want to know you :) The Internet has proven to be the best way for me to meet like-minded people, so drop me a line.
What would y’all like to see (personal photos, highs/lows, love-life stuff, etc.)?
I’m also thinking about having a separate sexual blog (mainly featuring poc and my personal interests/stories) because I apparently need an outlet!
Anyway, I hope y’all will celebrate safely tonight. I’ll be having some very good herb and very good champagne with my lover, hopefully followed by some lovin’…
Live one day at a time. Keep love on your heart and mind. Be blessed.
-L
Currently bumming it. Freshly done #locs though☺
I need to experience more women
But y’all make me nervous
Men are easy. I know how to handle them.
Women are, well, different. I’m sure sex with women is very different too.
Who wants to help me test a theory?? Ha ;P
Just realized that I’m on close to 100 people’s dashboards
And we don’t really talk that much. :(
I don’t meet a lot of people similar to myself, so it’d be cool to make friends.
Inbox me
Can’t sleep, so write, right?
Broken-hearted girl, dry your eyes.
There’s no time for tears
You’ve got to be strong
‘Cause one day, it may be time to move on…
“Never,” you say?
So you’d rather stay for the off chance of a sunny day in this nasty storm of love you and he created?
You debated this, I know
Whether to stay or go
(It’s all perspective)
But do you, broken-heated girl?
What to do, do you know?
You say he’s your world, but your world can be cruel
It’s always a duel between wants and needs
Gotta beg and plead for help to survive, why?
Dry your eyes,
Look inside,
Fly.
Why do I feel like it’s not OK to acknowledge my gifts/talents/achievements?
I feel like affirming that I have certain talents or a knack for certain things makes me prideful. I’d rather be self-deprecating that to even appear haughty or full of myself… How the hell do I get an ego? It seems like people with egos and outward confidence have an easier time at life… I need balance
Morning thoughts…
Small steps of progression
Steps in the right direction
Moving away from the stress and
Depression leaving my soul
For I’ve almost reached my goal
of happiness
Security and love all come from
Small steps of progression
Steps in the right direction
I’m shy, but he got me lol (Taken with Instagram)
Most days, I’m continually on the verge of tears. Today is worse than most days.
Deep in thought with vacant eyes